Must've done somthing right.

I'm here yet again. typing out on a basicaly stolen modem because I'm such an un-ruly one like that. I guess Dad'll never figure out cause he thinks blog is an 70's movie about ooze that ate people. not sure about Stacey though, not that I care anymore, alot of reflecting to figure out that i'm not such a bad person really. I'm not a saint mind you but..I really didn't want to be the pope anywho. Everyone's going to college and I'm still trying to get my liscense yet I don't feel bad. Guess i'll start living when i'm 30. someone told me that was the new 20 anywho so I guess it takes 10 plus 30 to be 30 now. I sincerely hate math --;;. It's almost six and it's horribly pretty outside, can hardly stand it I guess I should start walking or somthing now and get back around noon to get all this funk out of my system. Or sleep in my own bed for once, forgot how much I liked controlled climates.

Current Mood: awake

Suppose there's nothing better to do so I'll post..before I completely go crazy from cabin fever, Dad should be out fishing soon but I normally die out there..Brother's working his ass off as usual, It's going to be a cold day in hell before I ask mother dearest to do anything so I suppose I gotta go get my liscense from that place that I hate. As for complaing I've one sock on and both shoes..this game gave me a crappy ending and..I think thats all for now..maybe I'll get my hair ded soon though "chilled plum" may put my father in the hospital again..~le sigh~

Well I hope this works but if it Dosnt I'll post the link later on in the post but! Through the power of good will, random hope and the true paternal instinct many a strange thing can happen and I'm rather proud of mother nature's design for two such different things can be brought together through the power of love and need of affection, namely a tigress whose depression of losing her cubs nearly claimed her life until a few scientists put hope against hope in an attemt to save the tigress and a small litter or pigletts....Aww..

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When's the last time I updated?..eh..bleh I don't know..lets see who's on my list that dosn't know i'm settled ankle deep in nwn..um..no one oh good get that out of the way (such a loser TT;; ) um..I really don't need an eye exam I just can't handle asshole driver test jack offs, would of probaly burned a bridge if I told him I wasn't above biting him if he freaked out one more time...um, hair cut, M.K.A, My new picture LJ mabobber, I ripped my favorite shirt, started wearing my old comfort zone hoody from ninth, tenth, tenth, eleventh and twelve grade...--;;, um...yup think thats it?..maybe I dunno...need a job..um and the end?

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Feh,,alright If said girl wasn't completely drunk when she tried to feed me an alcoholic beverage..probaly would of had a lapse of will which completely threw me off guard..but it's fine I didn't drink of anything so I'm good..and people completely destory your perspective when you meet them out of high school..it's a shame but nothing that'll deprive me of sleep or anything..

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mmph...Alright Can't hold it in, I'm gong to share and opinoins'll be dully noted anywho! as some of you may know..My mom is everything I Hope I never ever become, she's an assholeish drunk, who's over weight and enjoys dragging everyone's life she gets ahold of into an emotional cesspool that not only tarnishes the soul but corrodes through it like a horrible festering disease...and as her almost last act she told me, simply me only me to keep a secret..which happened to be a confession that she had breast cancer..a doctor of course knows..but thats only two people..my brother, my sister, my step dad whom she "loves" dosn't know...Why me, some sentimental apology of trust of she wants to try and rip out the rest of my heart well she did it...officially got coup de graced by a dead person..tried to not let it get to me but I feel like every emotion I had over the last two weeks have been faked It's honestly like being a husk I can't sleep everytime I eat I get sick..I can hardly drink moutain dew without tearing up..It's hard not to just randomly cry I hate her..but she's my mom my stupid ass fucking mother who half of me is glad to see her go and I hope she leaves me somthing nice besides more luggage..So fine..I'm half of a horrible person...Fuck you

Alright Just becasue I wish to consider my choices and faith in others would greatly appreciate this small poll Even though I have the utmost faith in the scource who first told me please Reply 1 If you please the sotry of D calling moi a rather un-savory F word no not fucker and two if you do not think so this is mearly put becasue of the fact I know have acess to his true phone number and would enjoy greatly relieving my self from crying the past four hours in my sleep (for unknown reason) out on his pointed head, not being tough simply because none of you have seen me trying to be "tough" but pummeling somthing would make me horribly happy, Please and thank you..will see if I can close this thing after the short period of two days and anomynous sends are great..

Alright..Fine I've never ever felt so good in my life ever, because..Roxi still loves me, so go figure maybe she's all my good karma balled up into one big reward for taking so much shit like a champion, living in fucking winchest having four tenths of my family think I'm the black sheep in their little family tree, friends deciding to call me certain words I shall not use..people going out with people that disgust me rather horridly...random drama presented it firmly by the father figure and all..and the inability to get a job because..maybe I'm lazy..but then again i'm broke..I can drive..I know I can drive it's in my blood and a little peice of paper or lack of tells me I can't -shrugs a bit-..but out of all that...I still have roxi and even when she types -cuddles- I feel my heart beat again...I could ask for more but..one victory at a time -nods-...Maybe soon I'll get out of my shell and grab life by the gonads and say "go get you dick bit off by a heighy troll somewhere!" lol

Yeah ok lobster's are far to much like creepy crawlies to eat ><;; bet they taste like watered down chicken or somthing *shivers and blecks*

Alright..has to be the downer on the big 4th because
(1) can't do with sulfur in my hair
(2)at my aun't house the pool is chlorine with a lil' water in it
(3)my family's pretty sure i'm just utterly...somthing that they want to keep away from -shrugs- would say gay but I think their..somewhat open minded about things?
(4)well alright the volley ball is fun
(5)james is still held to the fact i'm a retard who can't keep up with anything and I can't wound him in front of grandmother fucking in the family by marriage, maybe he'll choke on somthing while he's eating...one can dream..
(6) while lighting fireworks you have to realize..their rednecks, safety means no one dies..the end, everything else well...you get to go figure and being the oldest cousin i've the honor of a mandatory "help" being "here you can light the biggon's and run ok?"
(7) 9/10's my family is in denial over a break up, have some horrible thing about them from it seizure to near crippling artheritis, or their not there for the previously mentioned

somthing was E-mailed to me and I decided to cut it all to hell and put my own little spin on it because I was feeling sappy..anyone wanna see?..It did have dogs in it but..pfft who needs em X3..

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Um..yay, my uncle, grandma, and mother went for the whole guilt trip thing "hey buddy..seen ya' in the paper why didn't ya' invite us?"..."It was a waste of time and effort".."oh..well we wouldn't think so grandma would of really like to have seen it" (>> she probaly would've given me some "pocket change" and I'd thave to explain to her I can't take your twenty grandma your old, without saying it like that of course) then mother dearest called...heh..whew..she cried and I think she was sporting at least a .08 give or take...yeh could smell her over the phone...-sighs-...family? I try I really do..